Adoption Update

I haven't updated on our adoption in a long while mostly because there have not been many updates.  Our profile book gets shown every now and then.  We have officially been waiting for a year this month.  This has definitely been the fastest year ever.

This past week held the most excitement and followed with the most heartbreak we have had so far.  While we were not matched, we certainly went through a roller coaster of emotions, up and down.
We were emailed last Tuesday, a week ago, and asked to consider a very special case of a little boy born a few weeks prior, Baby S.  He had a congenital condition that was pretty severe and not a whole lot was known about his prognosis or what his life would look like in the future.

This email was different than other past special needs cases we had considered because it was a direct email to us and not just an agency wide email.  Because of that, we wanted to do our due diligence and do our research before we said no.  After researching, reading, praying, talking to those with experience, we felt like we could make a decision

It was not until Thursday night that we made the decision to be considered for this little one.  This one happened to be an agency pick because it was the decision of the both parents to have a closed adoption at this time.

I was sent two pictures of this precious one on Friday.  It was so amazing to have a face to the name and be able to picture him while I prayed for him.

We were one of three families in the state that asked to be considered--a blessing in and of itself.  The fact that this little one was so wanted by so many was so encouraging!  We expected an answer on who was chosen this Thursday, but were a little caught off guard (and relieved) to find out they made an early decision on Monday.  Their decision was to go ahead with another family for reasons we completely understood.

I was heartbroken, but my immediate reaction was that I was so happy he finally had a family of his own and that we finally knew after several very long days what the final decision was.  It wasn't until a few hours later that it really sunk in that all those visions of meeting him and holding him and doing life with him were never going to come to fruition.  He was never ours and I knew that, but when there is a name, pictures, and updates nearly everyday, you get attached.  I can honestly say that Monday was one of the hardest days I've had in a very very long time and I cried harder than I have in probably years.

But with all that sadness is such joy and hope for this little one and his new family.  Believing in a sovereign God means I KNOW there is a plan for us and I KNOW the baby we have the privilege of raising will come to us someday.

If you think of it, will you pray for Baby S?  He is so precious and I cannot wait to hear how he does in the future (updates are possible for us in the future because of our involvement in his case).

<3 Dani